i hab alot tu say rite now. but my trail of tot was interupted by sis. she wana use e com. rite now ish 11.25pm. alot of tings happened recently. i'm startin tuu get tired, mentally. its been real long since i've been like tis. but as long as i noe dears arnd.. i guess all wil be okiies. i've been veri worried abt him, and ah gong. i wana hlp. i wana hlp sho much. jus wat can ii do?? i'm serioulsy willin tuu do anytin withiin my ability. inoe dear lost alot of energy le. can ii give euu all of mine?? how do ii do tat?? pls teachme how.. pls. i wan hlp ah gong oso. i wana visit him. haish~ dad and nmom came to sch today. dad toked to principle and my discipline head. ask wat documents must he sign to get me outa sch. oh.. e sch stuff again. moral of e story ish.. i stil am able to study wit e hlp frm teachers. dey don wan me to go.. sho now i hab to report to mr neo evryday immediately aft sch. sign in when i reach sch, and sign out at 5. sit dere alone rot.. i'm tired. i slept dere. i didn noe i drifted in to slp. all i saw was my dear. his image.. vividly. i saw, sho clearly. sho near yet sho far uh.. and when i'm awoken by mr neo.. i stil saw dear. but e first ting i open my eyes was e tot "where am i.. y am i here.. wat hab i been doin.. and den. oh.. i rmbed" took silver cab home. cost sho much. $6.30 can go pasir ris liao. but i don care. i can take cab lydat evryday and not eat. i don care. but my dear will be angry at me. lied on my bed and fell aslp again. when i woke up. its e same "where am i. wat hab i been doin.. y am i here. and oh.. i recalled again. oh ya~ i hab chicken rice jus now. i tried my veri best to finish it all. but stil left some though. i'm sowie dear~ i'm sho damn worried bout u. i wana hlp u out. pls allow me to.. i'm alright. i don give a damn bout wat happen to me okiies. i don mind. all i care for ish u and oni u. yer ah gong.. its 12 now. u're stil not home yet. jus try to slp pls.. don tire yrself out. it hurts me jus to c wat u're sayin.. but i'm real glad tat we're stil tgt despite all tis "obstacles??" probably.. wat ish a relationship if it cant even pull through obstacles.. but all tis ish abit too much for e both of us. i noe u're tired. i'm veri tired too. heavy. hen ai xiao de dabao. euu cant lose yer smiles and laughter okiies?? i noe its tough for u. don worri bout me. nth wil happen to me. i can handle em. HAO DAN XIN NI!!! haish. how long has it been tat i've toked and smiled at least. dear.. zhen de zhen de hao xiang ni. yin wei ni, wo cheng dao xian zai. yin wei ni.. wo jue de qi ta yi qie dou bu zhong yao. yin wei ni.. i'm stil arnd. for euu. i can feel jus how terrible u're feelin now. i'm sowie to not be able to hlp. sho pls teach me how.. don put up a tough front okiies.. hen xin ku de. don intend to slp today. don even tink i'll be able to get some slp. at most i go to sch earlier if dear not here again. 6 reach i oso don care.. haish~ren shen jiu ru tong yi chang meng
ru meng chu xing hou
yi qie dou da hui yuan zhuang
ren shen jiu ru tong yi chang xi
ban yan zhe zhong zhong bo zhe
rang ren cheng zhang
dao di xian shi shi she me
wo zhe me dou zhao bu dao
hai shi dui wo lai shuo
zi chuang de shi jie cai shi zhen shi
ren dao di shen lai gan ma??zhen shi shen lai huan zhai ma.. lishyan mingyan:
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