Monday, January 08, 2007

today wasn a veri good day agaiin. e oni few minutes tat i truely feel tat i am myself ish in e mornin. i saw dear~ was reali reali hapi to c him. drink a cup of milo durin recess. and til now, 3.45pm. i'm eatin e oni muffin. didn quite feel like eatin till dinner. but he'll be angry if i didn do sho.. went to look for bel aft sch. i waited quite a long tym for her. i'm not givin me a face or wat. or showin attitude. but she got angry and say she hao hao wen wo got anythin to tel her. i mean i don hab anythin tat i feel like tellin her. she noes all. and i don feel like tokin. she confront me den stormed off. i went to e office upstairs and slept. b4 tat.. i wonder y. i cried. but fought back still.. i don wana cry. i'm angry at myself for tat. dad fetch me home. if not i gota stay till 5 again. jus get to noe tat he called my fwens. i was angry. i feel tat he gives my fwens no respect at all. and i didn noe he'll ring up dear too. yer predictions are right. he reali looked for euu. as i was readin yer blog.. tears swelled. but i couldn show tat i'm e slightest bit sad. e feelin sucks. evrythin bloated inside. i couldn cry or show anythin.. i'm goin to go crazy sooner or ltr. feel sho much like cryin my hart out. dad's here. popo's here. if i reali did.. i'm afraid i cant even use e com anymore. i'm feelin terrible dear~ i live for euu. now. i live for euu. i don c any reason i shall be myself except e fact tat u'll be sad. i wan euu to be hapi. but i cnt ask u to now.. i noe, i und. all i noe ish.. u're my life. i tink of euu sho much, afraid tat i might give up soon. mayb even return to my old self. i love euu. i don give a damn bout gals home stuff if i noe u're wit me. i reali don care. i'm serious dear~ i don wana leave u. especially right now. SHIT. i tink my eyes are red. no.. i cnt cry now. pls.. a while more. jus a while more. i'll hold back. but not now. bel hurt me.. dear hurt me too.. i dono wat tuu do. i reali dono.. i'm gona finish my small cake. don tink i'll be havin dinner. reali don feel like eatin. dui bu qi xianggong.. i love euu. and i promised too. tat i'll nv leave euu. i said it. and i won leave..



11:40 PM;
ii'm siimply hopeless

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-=|Solistice|=-

 I stand in between both solistice; slashed, tortured, LOST.

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离不开的别离 - 俞熙珍之歌


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.black. .pink. .bossoms. .happiness. .freedom. .rain. .sounds of nature. .fictions. .darkness. i love .PENKNIFE. `

HATES

.loneliness. .depression. .to be livin in the cruelty of world `

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    everytiing comes n goes. do not be too happy when euu get wat euu want. cos euu miight end up losiing iit
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    do not b too sad when euu didn get wat euu wanted. cos euu miight hab e chance to get iit. the hope to pursue iit.
    Fell and Stand up again
    do not leave the one euu love fer the one euu like. cos the one euu like may leave fer the one he loves
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    lionel laogong ming yan "To be loved is to destroy, and to love is to be the one destroyed"
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